Who am I?

It's interesting sometimes to analyze yourself especially when someone catches you off guard and asks you a question that you've never really pondered. A few days ago someone, a student, asked me who I was. Not the literal question, duh, I'm Señora! But the symbolic and meaningful one... Who are you really? So here's my answer... (This is a rant. A run-on, long, grammatically incorrect expression of my inner most thoughts about myself. So, grammar Nazis beware...)

I was born Olga Adalis Torres Rivera! Now, I am Olga Adalis Torres de López! Yes, that's EXACTLY what my marriage license says. I am the daughter of Maria Olga Rivera Vélez (the most amazing woman ever to walk this earth!) and Fabio Torres Rico (not the most amazing man to walk this Earth!). I was born in 1975 in Arecibo, Puerto Rico but grew up in Castañer, Vega Baja, Puerto Nuevo and Worcester, MA.  I am the product of two cultures but really belong to three. I am Puerto Rican, Colombian, and American. My first language is Spanish and Spanglish is my second (my mom would KILL me if she heard me say this!). English is my third! I love to shop, fashion is an obsession, and my family and friends are my reason for being. I am a teacher who loves her profession and makes sure everyone knows it! Yes, I AM IN LOVE WITH MY PROFESSION! (But if you didn't know that, then you don't know me at all!... Plus, this is another blog in its self right here!)

I am bossy, pushy, over bearing and outspoken. I am also very kind, gentle, and giving. When I want something I go for it. When I don't, I walk away. I take things very personal, I don't like being ignored, and I can't stand "fakeness". If I need help, I probably won't ask for it, but if you need help I will be there regardless of what it is (vaseline on, earrings off!). I take charge of most situations and have a hard time accepting no for an answer as well as giving no as an answer. I speak my mind wherever and whenever I want. I can tell you I love you but can't stand your new boyfriend in one breath. I can compliment your outfit and call you a bitch for ignoring my comment to you at the same time. That doesn't mean I don't love you, it means I love you enough to be honest with you even if it means pissing you off. I don't like to keep things bottled up as it makes me a very, very mean person. I don't like the "why" feeling. I loathe that feeling of uncertainty. I truly appreciate honesty even if it's brutal. That whole uncertainty thing is just not my game.

I can't stand silence. Whether it be literal silence or metaphorical silence. I need to have noise at all times. I think it has to do with my ADHD. Yes, I am ADHD, how could you not tell? I said to a friend the other day that his silence was deafening! I hand't heard from him in days! I am a worrier... Yes, I worry about what people think, feel, say, and do. I worry about losing the people I love. Once you've walked into my life I have a very hard time letting you out. If you want to leave, leave, just let me know why! I wear my heart on my sleeve but it is stronger than people think. I cry almost on cue, but that doesn't me I can't take pain. I've been through some shit and I am strong because of it. I don't like games unless its Trivia Crack or Monopoly! I am also very sarcastic...

I enjoy meeting new people and making them part of my family. I get attached way too quickly and have a very hard time letting go. I don't take rejection well and when rejected I want to know why! Why? So I can work on the reason or reasons, if they are good ones, or so I can tell you to F**k off if they are not. I'm reasonable and can accept my mistakes. I can admit when I'm wrong although I won't be too happy about it. I talk with my hands as loud as I talk with my voice. I switch from Spanish to English way too easily but people learn to understand what I say or just agree with it. Either way, I get my point across.
I am one of the realest people you will ever meet. Who I am today is the same person I was yesterday and the same person I will be tomorrow. If something you do affects me in any way, believe me, I will let you know regardless if it was a good thing or not. I was not put on this earth to please anyone but God and myself.
We are put on this Earth to help make it a better place and if you are not doing that, I will let you know whether it be with my silence or with my very loud voice. I try to be the best person I can be. I can be rude and disrespectful but I can also apologize for it. Usually its' because you've pissed me off and I'll et you know who and why.
Sooo.. this is me. Take me or leave me, love me or hate me... I am who I am and do not plan on changing for anyone.
Now, tell me.. Who are you?